a plane's shadow over the clouds caused by the moon

i went out to smoke a stolen cigarette
the moon was so bright i thought it was a sun
it catched my eye, and cleared my mind

i went back to get a beer
i was hungry eventually but in front of my room door
there's a giant coackroach
i'm scared

it can jump
my heart stopped
it stopped twice today

earlier when i came back to the guest house
i just sat in front of the computer, in the common room
a girl said hello, she was barefeet, reading a book
we chat and
i saw confidence in her eyes, looking into mine

all became blurry, i hadn't felt that for quite a time
this is foreseeable, i just like to dream
but i don't like expecting

so i'm just happy to feel
at a time when you just want to feel
when you're far from what you think you are
when you wish life went as planned
and for just a second, it gives you thrice what you need

Fool Of Yourself

what a dork

i'm sad,

i guess

feel the need, 

to say it

who are you

talking to

who am i

like you knew

i'm sad,

please don't listen

your eyes

-

 who am i

talking to

why am i

pretending

when that's all

i rebuke

as soon as

i defend you

why aren't you

staring at

me

when i don't

see you

-

whatever the sounds

my ears get it

whatever information

my brain kills it

emotions

have no shape

yet you exist

i'm sad

what a dork

I'm So Far

forgive, forgive, forgive, the people
you hate, you hate, you hate, that's the only
way to stay sane, only
way to stay polite
hot blood for a cold heart
don't be blod you're no north hart
bacon for bold fart

don't make me roast as those roaches
i'm sorry, i'm sorry, i'm sorry, for i really
i hate you i hate you i hate you as much as
before, tomorrow i guess, i'll still won't wanna
handle your shit-face
write it on the sheet, she's a shit-face
fock fock fock i'll keep hating myself, indulgent

i'm being as far as i can
you're still there you're the definition of
a bitch

i can be the definition of whatever horrid thought you have
i'm still the definition of whatever torrid thought you cherish
bitch

i love you, bitch
why can't i keep a friend?
i love you, bitch
why can't i remain a friend
you must love me, bitch
to bring me that far
to keep me that sad
you never deserve enough
the situations life puts you into

i love you dad
arigatou gozaimasu

oversensitive, stubborn, unlivable dickhead (FREE)

in this world... all i'm tryna do is communicate my feelings

in this world... every way i do it seems like hell for others

i'm tryna learn, but the more you put the finger on it

the less you're able to move yourself from it,

in this world... where will i end up anyway?

when will i stop being a pain in your ass

i'm honestly sorry

why would i accept putting

anyone through this, choice is yours

you don't have to bear with me

just leave me be and let yourself be free

in my world... they all say i'm so positive

they talk 'bout how they're happy with my presence

in my world... why am i so mean with my dad?

when my mouth opens the truth it's only for verbal diarrhea

that's how i feel, letting myself feel

feeling like shit, and i hate y'all for this

saying you're shit, and i shit three times a day

fucking dweeb, they're still sad when you're gone, fuck

and i love y'all, have so much love to free

where does it go? it's like i'm inventing it...

i wanna cry, wanting your honesty

craving the same love, but all i free ain't free...

it's just the samo suffering

i can't assume to deserve

you deserve love

but nobody even know, what the fuck love is (fuck)

Blundered

fucked, i am fucked, who is fucked
haven't fucked in a long time, i don't fuck with y'all,
do you fuck with me, would you? nah shut up
don't answer that, do if you will, reaction's independent
i don't wanna fuck, i wanna make love in that cheesy way,
i wanna go that deep into you until your eyes flicker
until your heart stops and restarts and turns your body dry
throw you on the bed and leave you waiting for something to happen

is being blunted a blunder
deep grouse puts the misstep in mixtape
going down the stairway to even

i'd fuck you like a mantra, like under the influence
from slower to harder expecting new meanings for old emotions
crescendo releasing your chakras releasing the evil sleeping
i wanna kill you so damn hard for my own mistakes it's a decision
it's an incision into your mistery, who puts the ? in history
Seasons Rod instoring a reign of terrorism I will rule these lands
I'll burn everything before hammering flags deep down your skin, bitch

Well Deep Within

nowadays the only trace
of this town is the ruins
of a windmill
it didn't left a website
or was placed on the market
ever after
ever after

falling down in the well
feeling well in this well
in this deep well
stands a tall wall
bringing us as a whole
keep digging down the hole

nowadays when i walk
and end up face the hawk
he tells me
about the well
but he is not an owl
he just talks very well
took naps à tour de rôles
waiting for the jeu de rôles

all in all and forever after
party goer the night lives forever
the night lives as long as you're alive!

les 52 quarts de cœur

je plonge mon regard dans ton vide, en toi je me vide
de mes sens, as des anges
tu peux parler je te comprendrais pas
je te regarderai je te comprendrais pas
suis-je là pour ça? je suis là pour toi, pour toi,
pour toi, je ne sais pas qui je suis

je n'ai savoir ou connaissances
je t'ai toi

je regarde droit devant moi, partout je me vide
je ne brûle rien, ni ponts ni êtres,
j'aime
j'avale tes pouvoirs dans le respect
je les utilise mieux que toi par respect
je sauve la journée pour? pas de respect

ton pays est celui de la lumière,
faible, qui se lève, faible, qui s'éteint
ton âme est celle que je vise, dans ma lunette.
ton âme au centre de mon viseur quand je ne me rends pas compte
d'avoir pressé la gachette. . .  .  .   .

je t'aime

je t'écoute
mes mains ont fusionné dans l'irrespect
pour presser le jus de leurs pouvoirs sacrés
mes pieds ne questionneront jamais
seule mon ouïe compréhende...
seule mon ouïe répète tes mots saints...

sache... que je rêve de tes seins...
c'est la définition du confort et du repos
quand mon coeur se sent si lourd et déphasé
en remontant tes jambes, en ton centre
quels mystères
me prépare-tu
quelles souffrances
me réserve-tu
je les veux
je veux ta vie

all i ever was meant to be