i had to fall in love once more! but this feels like 7th grade over again...

i guess i was twelve

i didn't know shit about you, who you were, so on

i was entering the worst age and must have been scared of that

but i remember it happen, must have been late october, november

those are the months where leaves hit the ground from up trees

those are the months my heart weakens, and she plays the silly role

a state of denial and confusion until the thought clicks

the only thing that clicks when i spend minutes hours weeks months

struggling with a feeling that cannot affirm itself and take power

like a pikachu erasing its own possibilities of evolution

not by overpowered ego, but by inchoate synchronicity

you're just a prototype, the trial my ego endures, my mind rationalizes

you share the name of my cousin, common

my love for you disclosed

your love for another one

grined, beared

i guess i'm twenty-two now

i don't know shit about you, who you are, sowon

i'm sloughing off brain cells and wondering how it will all clinch

but i remember it happen, it was late november at the performance afterparty

i didn't want to love anyone, then i met you, then i wanted to fall in love

then i did knowing why the jerk i feel like today was indulging in obvious bullshit

i get faded, everyday

faded on smoking drugs and dumb yearning thoughts

make my mind the numbest fuzzed out guitar riff

shoegazer gazing at his feet, crushing the heart-shaped buttons

on the special effects pedals of this disturbing reality

i don't want to forget you

i don't want to forgive you

i'll accept pain like the clichéd shonen mc get stepped on by business market laws

i don't want to forget you

i don't want to forgive you

enduring karma, enduring life cycles

whatever the light is, chemically derived

stubborn unflappable in the sad as shit game, no games

don't lose track when i won't, six-armed deity squash each version of me

but for love, oh, for love (thank you)