On My Tender Pa[s]t(hs)

I made my first mixtape, with you in mind
It's called "Punk Moon"
It's a Nick Drake reference
Did you get it ?

You probably never listened to it
Though tracklist full of sick artists
Like Rangers, or Colin Blunstone
The last one's a cry out...

Am I tied into regularly thinking
Of all the girls that I once loved
Like building an unending melancholia life-state
Adding broken figures of misapprehended female Gods
Like a fucking memorial mindmark.

Wonder if I'll keep crafting mixtapes
For persons of opposite gender, used to not give a fuck
Maybe they do I don't know, maybe one day they will
I'm just one sick loser busy indexing tracks
Overthinking his own past feelings for ghosts
That never even fucking felt perceptible