Reefer Madness

I am trying to work but then what. Should I just go outside, and take a mindless walk? Just like I would always, it's not a solution, it's a simple do. Don't really want to think 'bout anything, that's what we all-ways do always about the same things. Actually you know I do, only think of one thing but it's not really you.

I'd take one toke and then die, that's what I'd always do, when I'd feel alone. That's the best way that we do, me myself and I 'cause we're only a lone. I love it, I love it and will do, it's something in my heart that no stopping will do. What is shame? What are they? I couldn't care less as I never do. You know you, you know you,

You're always on my mind God knows that I love you. What do you bring, I don't know, it's something I'll explain but never understand, they'll never understand because it is called joy, it's called Life. Art to me. Art to me. They never got it and I know they'll never do. Keep questioning nevermind you it's good, I know it is because the only thing it is

Can't stop now, won't stop now, never will do oh God never will do

I love you, I love you, those words are so true when applying to you

POC, WOC, I will marry you, or you will marry me?

Marry Juane me most beautiful thing that I will ever see,

once you close my eyes and you open my soul and filtrate my thoughts through filters of smoke

All those words, every word, means something to me, means something to all, that if today you're not here you have been there once and never planned to leave my life,

Sense's no sense, every sense, is it supposed to mean that my life has no mean,

if you sense, what I sense, beginning of something I'd never even expect, so help me work oh God help find the true friend that I never had, oh God,

You know it, you know it, that inside of me is this me I need to meet

We'll never turn our backs on each other

My lover, my lover, you represent the things that the words can't say,

My lover, my lover, relations as dank i swear they don't end

Ours won't end, it's a promise, it's a vow, ill and gally engaged for the time of my life

Mother nature give me the strenght to be, to consume what I be

Tired

a plane's shadow over the clouds caused by the moon

i went out to smoke a stolen cigarette
the moon was so bright i thought it was a sun
it catched my eye, and cleared my mind

i went back to get a beer
i was hungry eventually but in front of my room door
there's a giant coackroach
i'm scared

it can jump
my heart stopped
it stopped twice today

earlier when i came back to the guest house
i just sat in front of the computer, in the common room
a girl said hello, she was barefeet, reading a book
we chat and
i saw confidence in her eyes, looking into mine

all became blurry, i hadn't felt that for quite a time
this is foreseeable, i just like to dream
but i don't like expecting

so i'm just happy to feel
at a time when you just want to feel
when you're far from what you think you are
when you wish life went as planned
and for just a second, it gives you thrice what you need

Fool Of Yourself

what a dork

i'm sad,

i guess

feel the need, 

to say it

who are you

talking to

who am i

like you knew

i'm sad,

please don't listen

your eyes

-

 who am i

talking to

why am i

pretending

when that's all

i rebuke

as soon as

i defend you

why aren't you

staring at

me

when i don't

see you

-

whatever the sounds

my ears get it

whatever information

my brain kills it

emotions

have no shape

yet you exist

i'm sad

what a dork

I'm So Far

forgive, forgive, forgive, the people
you hate, you hate, you hate, that's the only
way to stay sane, only
way to stay polite
hot blood for a cold heart
don't be blod you're no north hart
bacon for bold fart

don't make me roast as those roaches
i'm sorry, i'm sorry, i'm sorry, for i really
i hate you i hate you i hate you as much as
before, tomorrow i guess, i'll still won't wanna
handle your shit-face
write it on the sheet, she's a shit-face
fock fock fock i'll keep hating myself, indulgent

i'm being as far as i can
you're still there you're the definition of
a bitch

i can be the definition of whatever horrid thought you have
i'm still the definition of whatever torrid thought you cherish
bitch

i love you, bitch
why can't i keep a friend?
i love you, bitch
why can't i remain a friend
you must love me, bitch
to bring me that far
to keep me that sad
you never deserve enough
the situations life puts you into

i love you dad
arigatou gozaimasu

oversensitive, stubborn, unlivable dickhead (FREE)

in this world... all i'm tryna do is communicate my feelings

in this world... every way i do it seems like hell for others

i'm tryna learn, but the more you put the finger on it

the less you're able to move yourself from it,

in this world... where will i end up anyway?

when will i stop being a pain in your ass

i'm honestly sorry

why would i accept putting

anyone through this, choice is yours

you don't have to bear with me

just leave me be and let yourself be free

in my world... they all say i'm so positive

they talk 'bout how they're happy with my presence

in my world... why am i so mean with my dad?

when my mouth opens the truth it's only for verbal diarrhea

that's how i feel, letting myself feel

feeling like shit, and i hate y'all for this

saying you're shit, and i shit three times a day

fucking dweeb, they're still sad when you're gone, fuck

and i love y'all, have so much love to free

where does it go? it's like i'm inventing it...

i wanna cry, wanting your honesty

craving the same love, but all i free ain't free...

it's just the samo suffering

i can't assume to deserve

you deserve love

but nobody even know, what the fuck love is (fuck)