a plane's shadow over the clouds caused by the moon

i went out to smoke a stolen cigarette
the moon was so bright i thought it was a sun
it catched my eye, and cleared my mind

i went back to get a beer
i was hungry eventually but in front of my room door
there's a giant coackroach
i'm scared

it can jump
my heart stopped
it stopped twice today

earlier when i came back to the guest house
i just sat in front of the computer, in the common room
a girl said hello, she was barefeet, reading a book
we chat and
i saw confidence in her eyes, looking into mine

all became blurry, i hadn't felt that for quite a time
this is foreseeable, i just like to dream
but i don't like expecting

so i'm just happy to feel
at a time when you just want to feel
when you're far from what you think you are
when you wish life went as planned
and for just a second, it gives you thrice what you need